[Velvet Vanity's Blog]
When all is said and done...theres no love lost!!graveyard lover
2007-02-18
When he loves he loves conditionally. Why do I have to feel all these conflicting emotions everyday, why do I still love hate? Everynight to feast a love so right, only to vomit it out in the morning and wonder what I did that was sooooo wrong. I am the one who never feels the warmth of the sun, I am the one who gets burned by the moon. So sweet is the night with him, I love so true. Why do we have to wake, its hard to love and lose everyday. I feel such stress as it steals the hours of my prescious life. How could he do this to his "baby love" and not miss a step, how is it that he cannot cut any slack? So unfair that I am happy in bed and tossed in jail at dawn because everything I'm going to do throught the day is a felony. So starts the where ya goin? everytime I get up from a sitting position, so starts the hunt for imperfections of fraction poportions to impose sentence. I have to get into a fight just to see my family, list reasons, listen to him come up with obsticals, and realize the fight is his way of shortening the time I could be spending with my mom, grandma, or sister. So easy to see his parents, not 20 miles away like mine, always gas enough for him but not for me even tho his pockets are healthy. Be careful what you say when you come around, or you wont mean to get me in trouble. Suspicious of a trip to the store for baby formula, suspicious I might have a friend, feel like an imprisoned fire. Then comes time to lay our heads, and lay the day to rest. Finally my breath come to me, remember what life feels like, to feel warmth. Nothing ever compares to night, its all I am worth. Hungry, I feast again upon the moon, knowing I'm going to vomit it in the morning.
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