[Velvet Vanity's Blog]
When all is said and done...theres no love lost!!Hevan's sin...
2008-04-10
Trapped, not by choice, just your voice. Innocence shattered by judgement. Everyday play, not your way, and not your dues. Entirely not within your virtues. Lay down the law, punish, put away the sounds of play, do exactly as I say. Cause to be hated, harshly debated, our base unit again desicrated. No compassion...thats your fashion, all the way or nothing. Then back to the start. Your so together as were falling apart. Your friendly side, we think it died. We just want to be on the same side, it would help if you tried... Break apart the truest heart, transform nothing into sin, we always lose so you can win. We cant stop you once you begin. Take us all for the fall, if you lose one, you will lose us all. Your face falls short of sympathy, as I expected... on and on we plee...disfunctional and rejected.0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Got a rotten neighbor?
2008-02-29
Check out rottenneighbors. com, and expose those who need it!1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
worry about your path...
2008-02-01
You cant change god's work and make it better or make it worse. It is what it is...1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
k
2007-11-26
Recognizing respect... as what it is,
remembering respect... as what it was.
honoring respect... as others dont.
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Ho Hum...
2007-11-26
Thought...
birth, breath...open, bright...
life, live...blink, light...
death,silence...close, black...
Thought...
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Broken Circles...
2007-11-02
TAXES SUCK THE CHARITY OUT OF ME!!2 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Blah..blah...blah...
2007-09-02
Alot of things running through my thoughts today, like...gravity so mysterious and yet it consumes every second of our lives, and why my orgasms are wayyy better now than ever and why it took so long to get here, and WHY do my neighbors across the street have to sit out on their porch all day and drink beer and try to yell a conversation from across the street and not mindin their own buisness like they invented it! Those black high heals I wore last night to the metal show were makin all the noise, and so was I in the back seat of my Denali! I love my new tatoo...I love thinking about the past...I love love...Feelin like all my passions are capable of overwhelming me, and wanting them to. My body constantly reminding me the next release is now, and releasing it...The aromas that surround me...I am a prisioner of what I do not know. Will I make it to grandmas today? Before she dies? I cannot wait for halloween, I cannot wait for my body to weigh 140lbs, but I can wait for bills. Blah...blah...blah...
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Seattle the beautiful...
2007-09-01
I was in Seattle on Aug 31st and watched the Seahawks kick the Raiders asses! It was my first time in a stadium that huge and it was packed with seaheads!!! My kids loved it and it was a great family experience!! I definatly recomend hitting any kind of sport game to bring the family closer together, it was so loud and exciting and everyone was into the spirit!! You gotta try it!!
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guess Im a hater....
2007-08-16
It really, really bothers me when people come to a blog and try to sell you something other than a blog! Excuse me but nobody wants to buy any of your crap, and even if we did, we wouldnt come to shoutpost to find it! Get back in your element and leave us alone!! Your supposed to write, so if you have anything interesting or boring to say, it would be a million times better than product pushing!0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
In Memory....
2007-08-16
My protective rotweiler, Grizzly, and my beautiful st. bernard, Cujo, somehow got out of my backyard fence and we couldnt find them for 3 days. I felt a desperation I cant describe, and kept hope of their safe return. On the 3rd day I recieved a call that they had pulled my dogs out of an irrigation drain. They should have that shit fenced, what if my dogs happen to be a couple of kids?
I want my wonderful dogs back!!!
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I am going....
2007-06-28
Yep, I think I have talked my ole man into taking me to Portland so I can see Silvia Brown! What am I going to ask her if I get a chance to talk to her? I definatly dont need to ask about my love life, mabey my childrens futures or something like that! HUM...............3 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
2007-03-28
How I feel today...0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Sexy muscle.......
2007-03-28
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Hu?
2007-03-19
Carry the weight of word from others, each one of us.....and each one of us to others, word weight to leave. Oh the cyle, cycles us....the truth and lies choice of those who read.0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
whoops
2007-03-19
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Wasted....
2007-03-18
I've wasted time.....and now time wastes me!1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Hate puddle jumpin'....
2007-03-17
Mabey there are people who dont like what I blog about, and wonder why I cant just do it the right way, their way......Mabey those people are members of some secret high-society blog community whose boundarys are set, pledged to darken the burning flame of others who are outside them. Mabey their thoughts are not mine and neither are their ways. But if I could suppress myself and close my eyes, lay down and die, then I could fit into your grace and be exactly like you. Mabey even be you. BUT...I can see...and instinct tells me not to suppress myself, and suicide is out of the question. So where would you have me? In judgement, thats where....with you looking down on me with your high-society blogness. Mabey you prefere I post about art, because it moves you. My art moves me too, and probably like you, I cant alter my passion for it. My art is SEX. It probably disgusts you. Mabey once you admired it too. Only a handfull of the human population does not become enslaved in some way by it. Can you say the same about your art? Beauty is in the eye of the beholders, and if you are like me, you can find beauty in almost everything.1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Oh yeah.......
2007-03-16
Oh yeah....I forgot this dress was in my closet! Then I put it on and oh yeah....how could I have forgotten such a damn sexy dress like this? My husband is very happy I found it, Oh Yeah....0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
up, down, up, down......
2007-03-15
I am up an down on a big hot blog, cool! In some sort of weird way you could say I fucked alot of people on my way to the top 10! Are you one of them?3 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
what should be said and then done?
2007-03-15
Sometimes you just gotta say"Fuck It!"1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Blog hot....
2007-03-15
Poor me, I am nowhere to be found on the hot blog list, mabey I need to spice it up a little! Poor me! Kenneth is like a solid rock at number 1, your sooo hot kenneth!
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Diary of a madwoman......
2007-03-15
Rechargable batteries are the shit! My vibrator is lovin it! (JK) I have saved so much money, it was a very good investment. Well today I took my baby to see her great grandma, which is my grandma, and I am so grateful that my kids have a chance to get to know her. I never got a chance to get to know my great grandparents. All of my grandparents are and were the best people I've ever known. Oh, my sister just pulled up, I'll post more shortly.....1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
rare friendships
2007-03-14
I have a friend who I have known for over 15yrs. and it is a strange kind of friendship. We lost contact for about 7yrs and our lives crossed paths again. It is a give and take friendship and theres alot of trust between us, and I have to say that even tho this friend is of the opposite sex, it will NEVER go further than that, but the friendship is very solid. My husband would never understand let alone accept that my friend is another race. But whenever I see my friend, which is mabey once a week, he always lays his thoughts out on the table and even tho I have a hard time understanding half the stuff he is trying to say, I feel some kind of subconcious transulation, or mabey we are just on the exact same level, I dont know. But it feels good to have a friend that you KNOW isnt talkin shit behind your back and trying to get something out of you. I never have any time to visit long, and that is understood and accepted by my friend. I just want to give a thumbs up to all the people out there that can say they have a friend like this and a special thumbs up to the friend.4 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Night of the comet...
2007-03-09
Just came out and I havent seen it in years! Here I come wrap around couch and pillow! Mabey some popcorn too! The end of humans, well almost. A new begining anyway!2 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Ass Blaster!
2007-03-08
People really piss me off sometimes, I mean if you say your going to do something, then why dont you do it? Especially when others are reconstructing the events of their lives around your so called appointment. Why cant you just say " I wont be able to make it " instead of just being a fuckin flake? How hard is it to just be honest, because its easier to be a asshole.....easier to just shit on everyone. I cant understand how god was able to fit 20lbs of shit in a 5lb shit dispenser. What else do you have in this world besides your word? Oh yea, you got turds instead of words! Butts dont have arms to answer phones either. Nor do they carry a thought, just shit.1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Swirl of randomness........
2007-03-07
Randomly seek the living among the dead. The dark comprehends nothing. Men love darkness rather than light because their deeds were evil. See signs and wonders they wont believe. Rise take up your bed and walk. He was burning the fire. Gather up the fragments that remain, that nothing be lost. You are the father of the devil ant the lusts of your father you will do. For he is a liar, and the father of it. So the night comes. The shepherd cares not for the sheep. You have not chosen me, but I have chosen you. I must go. If not, comfort will never find you. Tribulation has overcome the world. I thirst. Simon starved the lambs, butchered the sheep. Which is he that betrayeth thee; must sleep. Travel down the street called straight. What has been soiled you call it common. I go bound in the demon for this thing was not done in a corner. Law unto themselves, all come short of the glory. Raised from the dead to die in the shadow of those who die no more. The ways of sin is death of life. For the good that I would do not, that I do. Shall the thing formed say to him that formed it, weep with those that weep? When that which is perfect comes, then that which is in part shall be done. I persecuted the church. I am what I am. This corruptable must put on immortality. A form in the flesh, messenger of it. Enlighten me. Whatever you sow, that shall you also reap. No remission without shedding of blood. Unruly evil of deciet, no chastity can tame you. Life is but a vapor. Shepherd of souls have gone astray. Lost his mind yesterday. Dark star, darker sight. The dog turns to his own vomit again. They have done death, but have not seen evil.
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showin some luv!
2007-03-05
I dont remember what I was thinkin when I came upon this site, I dont think I really knew what blogging was, but now that I have tried it I think its pretty interesting. You can get negative and positive response , a variety of oppinions and on top of that you can unload on it without mercy and its all good. In my book that is A_OK! Way to blog all you posters!!(pat,pat)0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
showin some luv!
2007-03-05
I dont remember what I was thinkin when I came upon this site, I dont think I really knew what blogging was, but now that I have tried it I think its pretty interesting. You can get negative and positive response , a variety of oppinions and on top of that you can unload on it without mercy and its all good. In my book that is A_OK! Way to blog all you posters!!(pat,pat)1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
how many ways can you die abnormally?
2007-03-05
I once had a dream that I was in a school bus and it was teetering on top of a skyscraper, the bus was going one way or the other no matter what, so I tried to brace myself. Then I could feel the drop and see the building sliding by faster and faster. Then about 1/2 way to the ground, a huge bomb went off in the building and blew the bus to bits. Then it was dark, then I woke up.....I got a drink, went back to bed........Then I am running down a big hill that is covered with manicured lawn grass, I reach a sidewalk and from the sidewalk on is city. I was stressin cause something was chasin me and it was rattling the ground louder and louder as it came closer. I was standing on the sidewalk looking for a hiding spot when the top of a head became visible at the crest of the hill, and panic set in full blast. I then, in desperation, lay down on the sidewalk crack, and begin to squeeze myself into it! It almost works, and then I realize the reality that No Way could I do that and my body slowly pops out from the crack and there I am in front of freekin king kong! Hes pissed about something and rushes me. I wake again.All I wanna know is how many more rides in the park, and where can I buy tickets?
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intention
2007-03-03
Intention does not err. Every aspect of nature, without exception, has intention built into it, and as far as we can tell, nothing in nature questions its path of intent. Nature simply progresses in harmony from the field of intention. We too are intended from the energy of this field. There is what some call a "future-pull" in the DNA thats present at conception in each of us. In the moment of our conception, when an infantely tiny drop of human protoplasm combines with an egg, life in physical form begins, and intention directs the growth developement, including our aging, are intended in that one moment of conception. This field of intent cant be described with words, for the words emanate from the field, just as do the questions. That placeless place is intention, and it handles everything for us. It grows my nails, it beats my heart, it digests my food, it does this for everyone and everything in the universe. Theres a field, invisible and formless, that manages it all. The intention of this universe is manifested in zillions of ways in the physical world, and every part of you, including your soul, your thoughts, your emotions, and of course the physical body that you occupy, are a part of this intent. So, if intention determines everything in the universe and is omnipresent, meaning theres no place that its not, then why do so many of us feel disconnected from it so frequently? And even more important, if intention determines everything, then why do so many of us lack so much of what we'd like to have?
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spanish is for mexico.....
2007-03-03
I just want to know why the hospitals, or whoever, let illegal immagrants attain legal citizenship for having a baby here in the states. HELLO! None of my relatives before me had to sneak over any border and avoid contact with the law with the sole intention of birthing a child so they can gain citizenship to a country. Ok. If someone is not supposed to be in your country and they just happen to be breaking the law by being there anyway and just happen to be pregnant, then that baby isnt supposed to be here either! Which means there are a shitload of people who claim to be citizens but in reality arent supposed to be here, and it is hurting the TRUE citizens who didnt have to break any laws. Someone wasnt doing their job when it came to a woman who cant even speak english, spits out a kid, Oh lets give it a birth certificate? The TRUE americans have become the minority because of this and now they are telling ME that in order to get a job, I HAVE TO SPEAK SPANISH? Last time I checked I was in the US, NOW IT FREEKIN MEXICO UP IN HERE. If they wanna live here illegally then it should be MANDATORY that they learn english, I dont see any other countrys making their citizens change their language and culture to accomodate illegal aliens and their babies. Mabey its because they have smart people who hand out birth certificates. If you were to tell my grandma she had to speak another language to get a job, do you know what she would say? What a shame that we have become the minority in our own country that we send our children to war for. We have to fight for our right to enjoy what we have, everyone else just has to make it to a hospital. My grandma cant even get the help she needs because the illegals gotta get theirs, and my grandma has worked here her whole life and her parents and their parents before, and theres nothing left for her. I bet if you go into your welfare office you will see a bunch of mexicans behind the desk. Thats because they can speak spanish to the new illegals fresh from the border who will never have to learn english to get a job in the us, and give them the handouts that down to the nitty gritty belong to the TRUE americans. Which leaves us to struggle, someone fucked up big time. I'll be to hell if I fuckin gotta speak another fuckin language to get a job. Thats the biggest bullshit I ever heard. THIS IS NOT MEXICO!!!!!! You wanna live here, go to war and earn your right by fighting for it like we have to. Then learn the fuckin language.
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PA...LEEZE!
2007-03-02
I do so love you, more than anyone could imagine, my life is ALL about you. I dont even get time for my needs, I'm so busy lookin out for your needs along with the kids needs also. 1/2 the time I cant even get to the rest of the shit. You plan my day before I even know about it. Always a list of things for me to do, so I cant do anything else. So you'll have an idea of what I'm doing while you away. I dont want you to PLAN my life for me, I want you to LIVE my life with me. You cannot mistreat my adulthood, without loosing me. Gice me humanity or I will just take it.
BELIEVE me when discussing serious issues, because I believe you! I've never played head games or erjected your excuse, true or not! I dont put you down or call you names and run a guilt trip on you, and especially I NEVER say things I dont mean, or say things that will hurt your feelings, just to break you down emotionally. All these you control...own...and use on me from day to day. If I'm not the one degrading my being or saying things I dont mean, then why dont you believe me when I say Nothing Happened? I'm not the known champion of head games and lost self control. I know the truth, you heard the truth, now believe the truth. I've never given you any reason to believe that I have ever wanted anyone but you, I want us to last forever. But if you cant trust, then I cant trust either, which I have done so very well with you. GIVE MY EXPLINATIONS A CHANCE to be told, considered, debated, and then.....juged. You come on to me already judging w/out the 2 sides being clear, and basing your judgement only on the one thing you want to believe---that I am a slut. OK. Fine. Whatever. Just like I'm the one who makes you violent, an I'm the onemaking up your mind......what you decide, is YOUR decision, based on your own thoughts. So, since your to busy playing god to realize that your not god, I cannot see a way to repairwhat we thought we had. If you cannot believe me, then my lies wont be any different than my truth is.I think you need to take a look at yourself and imagine you walk the earth like the rest of us. Mabey uou wont lose the things you think you care for. WHAT I SAY, IS WHAT I LIVE. You know that I am a serious person, rarely do I wander into telling someone something I dont mean. I never know what to do, cause all it is, is a trap. Set by you, thinking you'll break me down that way, well, what happens if theres nothing to break down? I guess all thats left to break is my self worth. I'm sure you wont have a problem, hell you probably have a plan for that too! I just wish I could be human, an adult being.
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??????
2007-03-02
Going to church does not make you a christian any more than going to a garage makes you a mechanic.
Someone somewhere is wishing that you would notice them.
Angels fly because they take themselves lightly.
Bre good, or be good at it.
If not me, then who?
Would a fly with no wings be called a walk?
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways, my ways.
S.L.U.T.-- A woman with the sexual morals of a man.
If you cant enjoy yourself, enjoy someone else.
I'm amazed your knuckles dont bleed when you walk.
Your certainly thoughtless, wish you were speechless too.
Dont sweat the petty things, and dont pet the sweaty things.
Learn the rules so you can break them properly.
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rollin'
2007-03-01
Why do blondes wear green lipstick? Because red means stop!
Why do blondes wear hoop earings? They gotta have somewhere to rest their ankles!
(no personal offense, just for laughs)
What do you call a lesbian with fat fingers? Well hung!
Why did the witch fly upside down on her broomstick? She had a hairry crack-up!
Wh do birds fly upside down over Madras oregon? Its not worth a shit
What do you call 32 rednecks in a room? A full set of teeth!
Did you hear about the giant that had diareah? You didnt? It's all over town!
If I cut off my right butt cheek, will I be left-behind?
How did herpies leave the hospital? In crotches!
If my pants arent at my ankles, dont open your mouth!
If I wanted any lip from you, I'd jiggle my zipper!
What has 3 teeth and 60 feet? The front row of a willie nelson concert!
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got some?
2007-03-01
Life is so great when you have a partner who is always ready to please....always ready to go again. When I am out and about lookin all fine, its not cause I need to get laid. If you see me I guarantee that I have just got laid or am going to when I get home! You can bank on that!0 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
neighbors will be neighbors!
2007-02-28
Every hood is unique in its own way, and mine just happens to be sorta odd in my opinion. One reason may be because the neighbors on both sides of me are hispanics and then on the other side of the southern neighbors is an elderly, or almost elderly lady. The house on the north neighbors other side is a business. Then across the street we have some people who are always gettin drunk on their portch, and are always trying to be overly friendly and you cant understand half the words they are hollering at you. The neighbor next to them has 2 dogs that can never stay in their own yards and are always buggin my rotweiler and st. bernard by running around on my portch where my dogs are not allowed. Then the other neighbor is so obese that she has to make her kids run around for her and rarely does she come out of her house. Then on the corner we got your run of the mill crack house and the same on the opposite corner of the block. Most everyone stays out of our way because nobody wants to mess with my husband cause they all think he will kick their asses or something, the hispanic neighbors on both sides of us keep to themselves and do it very well. I will see the old lady out in her yard once in a while doing some watering. Our street is on a steep hill and we have skateboarders bombing down our road all the time. Today, the lady with the dogs had some company who thought the brakes on their car worked, guess they were in a hurry to get in the house when they parked or something cause their car rolled into our mailboxes and killed them. My husband got the plate number and called the popo. Well the point is, the hispanic neighbors did not see what happened and I saw them looking at me sorta funny, like they suspected me and my husband were the ones who did it. Well I was in the house for awhile and when I went outside again, the mailboxes were fixed! I know they still think it was us but oh well, neighbors will be neighbors!1 Comments | Link to This | Back to top
Costal bound
2007-02-22
So it's off to the coast for a funfilled family weekend getaway! We are going to visit the goonies house and then make our way down to the wax museum and ripleys believe it or not! The oregon coast is always a pleasure to visit. The best part is the sex part, so romantic it is on the beach, without the kids of course. I'll let ya all in on the details when I get back on sunday evening!
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naughty naughty!
2007-02-20
So tonight I held my 1st "romance party" and had a good turn out! Sex does sell, and I would say it sells pretty damn good. I ended up with $100 worth of free stuff which is 10% of the total sales made at the party. For this small town thats pretty good, and I bet theres alot of lovin goin on in the neighborhood tonight!! I didnt know that a dildo could be so powerful. I about had to chase the damn thing across the floor, it just took off on me! The bar was right in the next room, which I must say made the all girl party really interesting, and made people dig further down when buying! I must say, Naughty parties is something every girl should attend at least once! Men should give their girls alot of money to spend cause then they will have more fun in the bedroom! I highly advise you attend if invited!
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Cant help it....
2007-02-18
What was I thinking when I decided to inhabit this body? I mean did I realize the weight of sexuality that would be upon me, I wonder. Everything about me is so sexual, I cant be satisfied with just once or twice a day, how dirty the thoughts that rule me. I like to wear dresses and skirts with nothing on underneath and tight shirts with no bra.....my nipples are never asleep. I dont care who sees me or what they see, long as they see something, and I dont even care if they like it or not. My body uses me, and I use it too. I just want a tounge, finger, whaterver fucks. I just want it all, and dont leave ANYTHING out! I love the tease of it, I get so wet just thinking about it, guess I just have to deal with it. I guess I'm just not in the mood for church.
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graveyard lover
2007-02-18
When he loves he loves conditionally. Why do I have to feel all these conflicting emotions everyday, why do I still love hate? Everynight to feast a love so right, only to vomit it out in the morning and wonder what I did that was sooooo wrong. I am the one who never feels the warmth of the sun, I am the one who gets burned by the moon. So sweet is the night with him, I love so true. Why do we have to wake, its hard to love and lose everyday. I feel such stress as it steals the hours of my prescious life. How could he do this to his "baby love" and not miss a step, how is it that he cannot cut any slack? So unfair that I am happy in bed and tossed in jail at dawn because everything I'm going to do throught the day is a felony. So starts the where ya goin? everytime I get up from a sitting position, so starts the hunt for imperfections of fraction poportions to impose sentence. I have to get into a fight just to see my family, list reasons, listen to him come up with obsticals, and realize the fight is his way of shortening the time I could be spending with my mom, grandma, or sister. So easy to see his parents, not 20 miles away like mine, always gas enough for him but not for me even tho his pockets are healthy. Be careful what you say when you come around, or you wont mean to get me in trouble. Suspicious of a trip to the store for baby formula, suspicious I might have a friend, feel like an imprisoned fire. Then comes time to lay our heads, and lay the day to rest. Finally my breath come to me, remember what life feels like, to feel warmth. Nothing ever compares to night, its all I am worth. Hungry, I feast again upon the moon, knowing I'm going to vomit it in the morning.
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